Kind of a cheesy title for an introduction, right? I mean, as meaningful as it may be, it’s really cliché. And honestly, this really can’t be considered a “new beginning.” It’s just the beginning of another one of the countless blogs and journaling accounts that I have across the internet. But, at the same time, it also signifies a change that I am going to try and make.
I have some friends that I have known for years. I met them online. Now granted, they aren’t much different than any of my real life friends – minus the fact that I actually talk to my “online” friends these days and not so much to my real life. Don’t think that is really as sad as it sounds. All of my “real life” friends, those that I have known since I was a kid, have gone on to have lives. Children, husbands, jobs and school…none of them even live around here anymore. Relationships tend to fall to pieces that way, but they are always still holding on by a thread…and in some cases, it’s a pretty strong thread.
That being proven to me just yesterday. I was having one of the worst days of my life – and suddenly – I got a message from a friend on Facebook. One of my best friends throughout my childhood. She moved away the summer before our 10th grade year in school and has been gone ever since. We’ve somewhat kept in touch over the years, but not nearly as much as we probably should have. None the less, she sent me a message that day – and while I couldn’t really bring myself to keep talking about how bad the day had been – it still made me smile. And made me remember that people do care and do think of me – even if I sometimes (or always) don’t think they do.
None the less, back to the point that I have managed to get away from – this, I suppose, is a “new beginning” for me because I am choosing, from here on out, to write about things that I have never before written about. The things have gone on in my life, in the past and recently, what tends to put me in a constant bad mood and all of the feelings that keep me paranoid and sensitive to being “forgotten.”
So, in the words of Michael Jackson – and probably others who are far smarter than the him or me –
This is me. This is it.
This is what makes me who I am – and this is what is going on in my life. I think that you will agree with me…I’m likely the most boring character in a real life soap opera. So expect a lot of posts for a little while – I have a lot to say – and I am about to figure out where to start.
